• maybe
• but why is it so negative?
• before did i write in this tone?
• where i spill out
• like a dam
• thats just about to explode?
• I dont want to blame her
• for what eating me up inside
• its my own demons i must face from the depths of within my mind
• now that im spent
• i dont want to chase after her no more
• each time i have, it seemed as if it was only a patch
• enough to last until the next big fight.
• what was up today/
• when you said those words and stormed off
• it was after we disagreed on the length of decay that pomagrante peels have
• and then you told me not to touch posion oak
• when i wanted to see if i was immune
• i did it without your permission
• does that make me the bad guy?
• you stormed off
  • racing rushing through the forest
  • blowing past the trees
  • the teepees
  • and all those behind you
  • leaving me way behind
  • i took it worst off
  • and slowed down my pace
  • to seperate you
  • to your own disgrace
  • maybe that is what i did wrong today
  • not chase after
  • the woman that loves me so much
  • to not want me poisoned
  • but i guess when i touched
  • that plant today
  • i poisoned our relationship
  • that was here to stay
  • and now it is rotting
  • away
  • away
    
    
    • i am
    • right now
    • as i talk to you
    • about days apast
    • things happen to stir
    • unforgotten acast
    • i dunno why i messaged you tonight
    • maybe it was to write out my sorrows of now
    • because i am at the fork in my heart
    • no one listens
    • no one cares
    • of my opinions my options my dream goals and asperations
    • they think i am selfish
    • for choosing myself over her
    • for giving up nothing while she gives up everything
    • well what am i hear for then?
    • to just listen and be obident?
    • I touched posion oak today
    • i would have licked it too
    • if i was mad enough
    • if i only knew that you never wanted me to feel pain
    • if i only knew that you never wanted me to suffer and stress
    • if i only knew that you wanted to hold on to me forever
    • then maybe i would have let go a little too soon ago
    • okay, now im just ranting
    • going through the daily feelings of the day
    • shit i already bored you
    • with endless lines of nonrhythmic slander sayings of sorrys