New Y

ears and ive have discovered what the 19th annual resolution is. Accrual the 3rd.
Because i was still young back then.
i think i know what annuel resolution i have in mind now.
man
forget all this.
trying to exceed the standerard
i just want to connect to everything i want to connect to people more.
hit i just realed im still a little kid
bullshitinn myself that i was much older hahaha
woohoo 2010
its going to be a great year
cause i learned
fore the expreences of 2001 already and i feel
i knw
i ='bekeueve
that there are even wow
jst lost in my thoughts right now.
im fucking thirsty right now
haha new years rease
take it easy on the herb
i dunno why but im so blazed out right now
ahhhh
im sorry delta
im fstill shy
and being high
dont
help
but one day
fire
works will go off
and the heat
will apperar.
Call of ducty tactic: Granade Ranger
its going to be great^not very good unless you can aim
do you ever feellike your life is like a movie
everything around you is part of the scene or prop
the script
and in frame
damn life
is great

have you ever had those reoccurring dreams?

where you know its a dream.
But for some reason.
you just can't change it?

dazzzzzing offfffff.
damn this bud got
me ssssstonnnned.
hahaha. cant think
of the bad of today.
just let all it go.
and
take
in
the
new
the
air
crystal clear
haha yea
im tryin too hard now.
anywhos
im fing high
hard as fuck to write when your not comfortable.
i just noticed where i relief my angry at.
well 26th
today wasnt so bad
after all.

[the clouds has lifted and no where near.]
while the(sun)
bleedss
steadly
away
...

Merry Christmas

and happy birthday Jesus!

How to

know when your're ready for a trim.
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#1. When the fro below,
needs more shampoo,
than the hairdo. (-_-)

#2. When a girl needs to use a scrunchy to do some work. HAHA luckily that hasn't happened yet.

Creativity

give me the Freedom to make mistakes.

What

is the difference between: Intelligence and Knowledge?

Mark 12:35-37

"How is it that the scribes say that the Christ is David's son? By the holy spirt David himself said, "Jehovah said to my Lord: "Sit at my right hand until I put your enemies beneath your feet." David himself calls him 'Lord,' but how does it come that he is his son?"
-Jesus (according to Mark)

Does this mean that Jesus is questioning the title 'Son of God'?

the next line is:

"And the great crowd was listening to him with pleasure."

??? this just leaves me alone to ponder about what he said.
No help what so ever. (-_-)

Who ever Jesus was. He knew who he was.
I want that.

2 things that i want to know.

#1 Why can't I venture off looking for love?

-People always say you have to wait for it.
-FUCK THAT
-I'm TIRED OF WAITING.
-IM FREAKEN CURIOUS ABOUT THIS phenomena.

and

#2 How do i know, when its right in front of me?

-Is it that glow you get whenever youre around that one special someone?
-When you cant stop smiling cause youre with them?

Movies just make me think about it more.

Love,
seems to be the Core
of
LIFE

Everyone wants it
Few have it
The world needs it.

Wow. Just thinking about this.
All im looking for is a girl to cuddle with during these cold winter nights.
and maybe a little fooling around too =)
Maybe I can just wait for love after all.

Hopeful

for today. Thank you Hope for giving me,
hope.
With your starless night hair.
I stumble with every stare
into
those brown eyes that
mesmerize.
To dreamers alike
who fantasize.
what's it like,
between those thighs? =)

I got two ways to go from here:

With your dark hazel tone.
Life isn't as enjoyable
when you're all alone.
With that said and done.
Why dont we exchange numbers,
so we can start some fun. =)

ORRR.

With that sexy hazel tone
Hope,
can we just bone?
8===D~(Y)

HAHA IM DONE. thats it. Caput. I hope you got a good laugh out of that.

P.S. I am not a perv. Just passionate =D

So,

I now realize how anti-social i am now. Or maybe its just when I'm high. But its not like i dont want to talk to people. Its just i cant connect with them anymore. Everyone feels so distant now. Like they are just acquaintances.

Or hell.

It could be just me because i got high.
I now will not abuse the herb.

I will only smoke

1. For connecting closer with nature (surfing)
2. To examine life in another outlook.
and
3. Maybe in the future, to share the experience with a special someone. (only if she really wants to)

No more giving in to free weed!
AGHH

im stronger than this.
out.
one.
Ng.

Ah,

on a good one, today. =)

ladies,
a few things you need to know.
Money lasts longer than sex.
the rich last longer than the sexy.

but in the end.
love is still there;
when the paper is all gone.

ah, still a bit high. =D
it got me all bubbly though.
not in a good way either ( '.' )

I JUST WANTED TO SAY.

thank you.

AHH. im ffffffreakn high.

haha and its only 12 :40.

The typical day of work.
but, that chicken salad sandwich today;
Bu Hao <- no good.
this hash makes up for it though.
=)
i got a few things i gotta do today.
so ill continue
in a bit.

AHHHH
fresh now.
and i must take a bow.
and also must say
Compliment the chef
for this
is a
perfect
mesh.

Ah,
fuck
i was just denied

(random thought) Rt: It all of a sudden got darker.
as the airplane flew by.

Auh.
Satisfied.
=)

I dont know if i should

continue writing. Haha sorry jennifer i stole that from you. But this is the knock off version =P.
So,
Where to begin?
At the end?
that means.
that there will be
no story to tell.
which is swell.
=)
that means
no story to tell.

Dear Mama,

If I only learned one thing from you through all these years. Its this: Get money before girls.
Sorry ladies, "I picked up the book of love. But sadly, the introduction didn't grab me."
"So, i decided to just wait.
Until the day i bump into my soul-mate." -Trevor (Gym Class Heros)

Now its time for me
to take my leave,
Off to the land of dreams,
where all you need to do
is
make believe.

-Ally Cat

YEAH SON! huh take that Silverstiein! im just kidding i love you man. your great. my inspiration.
to reach where the sidewalk ends.
thats my mission.

i wrote something great tonight.

but i closed the aim box. Well who ever read it. Only they will know. -O.O-

I opened up my heart today,

spiritually. But before i go any further let me say thanks to God for delivering the guardian angel i asked for. =)
As i was passing the student life center on my way to the library, the word "Free" caught my eye and reeled me in. They were giving away FREE cup of noodles and hot coco!!! As a part of finals week.

As i was about to grab my noodles and go, the girl at the counter asked me if i would like to take a "free" relaxing class. The first thing in my mind was A MASSAGE. But she shot my theory to the can, but told me to just give it a try. Being the persuadable guy i am, i did.

And the best decision i have made all week!

When i first got in, I didn't know what to expect.
Not even the slightest idea that the women in front of me was my guardian angel, Annette.
She just told me to take off my glasses and lay down on this comfy table bed.
So i did what i was told. And laid on the bed.
Annette then asked if we could pray before we started on our journey. And i said "Yes"
So i emptied out all but one of my pockets. Free from the burden. And closed my eyes.

Relaxing is hard. But smiling is harder! (well for me anyways.)
I learned the way to truly open our hearts, is to smile. =D (a real smile that comes deep from within)
It may be a stiff forced smile at first.
But that is because of the negative emotions, thoughts, and layers that sufficate our hearts.
All that self consciousness and stress
Drags our spirt down and closes up our soul.
Once we push past that.
That is when we can truly relax, find peace, and open up.

It took me a good hour of meditating with Annette to get a glimpse of God within me.
I was awaken with a sense of happiness, energy, and compassion.
It felt like i could rule the world! (or at least finish studying for my final tomorrow =D )

And i felt like my body was flushed after.
1. casue i gave out a big fart during the end of the session.
and 2. i went to the bathroom 3 times after it!

Dreamin..

So it all started off at a party or a dance, my memory is a bit hazy
and i saw this girl who smiled at me
So i went up to her introduced myself, and started to dance with her. It was pretty sweet.
We were "Slow Dancing", like the good old days
and then some crazy shit was happening
where two guys were fighting for their lives.
One was an alien and the other was an alien hater!
Blood was shed, and in the mist of all that an innocent bystander was killed. Lucky it wasn't my date.
Time then started moving really fast. And i was at home, my future more luxurious house. Planting the innocent one in a pot on my balcony so my parents wouldnt know that i was helping the alien -O.O-

then i saw her again

Casey

we smiled at each other

and i swear i could feel the intimacy between us. Even though i knew it was a dream

Please,

If you are really watching over me.
If you are really here beside me.
If you are really a part of me.
All I ask for.
Is strength
for tomorrow.
And happiness
for today.